FAMILY
Lisa here.
FAMILY SUCKS.
they hurt mi so deeply.
Why they keep thinking that i am the one who break this family apart when they are the ones who make mi fall apart.
Can the see and hear what they are saying to me.?
Is it because they could not feel what feeling i am experiencing.?
I wanna runaway.
Break free~
Escape from all these misery and be my normal self and Have a happy and Joyous sweet sixteen.
Why isn't God on my side.
I wish he can see whats happening and make a good judgement.
No matter what i believe god has a plan.
Maybe this is one of the obstacles he wants mi to go through.
But through the process i am really all beaten up and tired.
I really can endure anymore accusations and cursing from my veri own flesh and blood who gave birth to mi.
i am their daughter.
How can such words come out from their mouths.
Dun they have any idea by saying such things, cause one to Break down and fall apart.?
Instead, they push the blame to me and say that i am the one who spoil the family relationship.
WHat the heck.
ppl out there reading this might not understand what i am saying.
But nevermind.
i just wanna throw all these garbage into my pathetic blog who is the oni one whom i can spill as much as i want to.
One day when i am at an age where law cannot ven hold mi,
i will totally break through and run as far as possible.
As i have already lost so much.
I have already lost the warmth and love of my family,
why do they still try to take away my friends and happiness and the single bit of freedom that i am allowed to taste.
They are making mi lose everything except "stress,studies,misery, tears and pain."
Weren't they once 16 before.?
dun they know what a teenager wants.?
They have never experience the stress a teen nowadays suffer.
You know why.?
they never even reach secondary school.
they stopped schooling.
THEY HAD FUN!
and they have no idea what a 16 year old is experiencing now.
Someone please help mi.
save mi from all these.
one day when i really am unable to take in all these anymore,
i will really "runaway" and never return.
Do they want mi to live in a family that showers mi with love and freedom and brings mi happiness.
Or they want to trap mi in a house that contains nothing but screams,shouts, Studies, books and tears and burden.?
Is studies more impt den a family's warmth.?
Is money more important den family's love.?
Is shouting at each other what a sweet family do.?
This is the reason why i can never open myself up with them.
They never understands what i really want.
They oni know how to misinterpret mi.
I am really tired.
TODAY,
they made mi unable to go out with my loved one.
A AM FUCKING ANGRY ABOUT IT.
AND I SAID FUCKING ANGRY!
i shall stop here.
Hope a miracle will happen.
-it ends-
Friday, March 28, 2008@9:08 PM
FCUKED UP
Hey ppl,
lisa wun be blogging for quite some time unless there are pictures to update or any interesting events happening or any announcement i wanna make.
cause no mood.
FUCKED UP.
ppl who know mi well should know dahh reason.
Parents are so Annoying!
they do not give a damn on what i feel.
All they want is STUDY!
and they want to be in total control on me`! i am not a dog or smth.
i am a living being! i have my rights ppl!
FUCK IT.
-out-
SASA<33BRANDY!
randomness... xDD
Thursday, March 27, 2008@6:40 AM
EFF-ed up.
BIG ANNOUNCEMENT,
MY PHONE IS PERMANENTLY CONFISCATED.
LINE IS GETTING CANCELLED.
PERMANENT.
mom said:" How much i must pay to cancel this line, i will pay. She is just not fit enough to use a phone. CANCEL."
Thats all ppl.
lisa's out....
contact oni by msn~
Wednesday, March 26, 2008@6:56 AM
:]
Hey ppl,
here are some pictures.
If you guys could not bear my atrocious looks or face,
please do not continue.
WARNING.
explict pictures ahead.
maybe not so bad but to some might leave bad impression or something, eg actcute, actchio, siao zharbor, etc.
Do not wish to caption this picstures or tell their story as i still believe picture speaks more den words.
any questions just simply tag mahh board.
THANKYOU!!
MYBOY` <33
Monday, March 24, 2008@1:41 AM