~ I'm just a muffin ~

26 Things a Perfect Guy would do (:

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hands always find yours.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it

got this from Jaejae's blog.
hurhur.
so bored.
nth to do.
waiting for him to contact me~!!

Baby is gonna buy me back my memory card reader tmr!!
YAY!
lISA can finally upload pictures!!
excited.

-bye

Friday, August 29, 2008@5:58 AM

Lisa's back!

Hey ppl,
Lisa is back to blogging!
haishhh...
today was kinda boring.
dunno go school for what.
had the spca booth thingy.
our class made personalised balloons.
Quite fun, drawing and twisting those balloons :DD

had a flower one made for brandyy and a heart shaped balloon, without any words due to lack of time. SADDED! the flower one flew into a drain and brandon do not wanna pick it up cause its dirty. :[
SADDED.
thanks Liqun for the flower :D
and so now he left the yellow heartshaped one :D
HAHA. kinda out of shape siakk! :P
shall twist more balloons for brandyy :D

Kena caught by shaiful and the vp...
SO SIAN`!!!

whatever,
kinda got insulted,
but didn't react much cause its the fact,
so i just smiled and laughed with them.
but deep inside it really do hurt.
Making me feel so inferior.
its not my fault that i lack of good figure,
i am born this way.
haish.
for so many years have been getting such teases,
but yea, its okay.
i have learnt to accept the fact.
so ppl,
Just accept me for who i am alright?

-end.

Thursday, August 28, 2008@3:07 AM

WHERE ARE YOU?!

BRANDON DERMAWAN GOH YAP YAP!?!?!?!?!
LISA HO AN QI IS LOOKING FOR YOU SINCE 7:45`!!!!!!!!!
I KEEP CALLING YOU UNTIL NOW.!! 9:10`!!!!!!!!!!
AND I WILL CONTINUE CALLING UNTIL YOU PICK UP!
WHY ENGAGED?!
WHERE YOU GO!?!??!

PPL READING THIS BLOG WHO KNOWS HIM,
PLEASE HELP ME FIND HIM`!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BABY!!!!!!
WHERE ARE YOU!
SAW THIS POST CALL ME ASAP!!!!!!
You this idiot`!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:[[[[[[
T.T T.T.T T.T.T T.T.T
SADSADSADSADSADSADSADSAD.

-LoOking fOr yOu.!

Monday, August 25, 2008@6:06 AM

SPACECHIMPS!

Caught SPACECHIMPS with Brandyy today!
It was damn cute and hilarious!
HAHAHA!
LOVED IT~!!

Kilowatt was damn cute.
FYI, it has a big brain that lights up when it is scared [like a lightbulb] SO CUTE!

anyways,
today was, "OKAY" la,
Just for the fact that we do not have $$.
sian los!
Brandon only have 10bucks.
so sadded.
still say wanna bring me out play.
cause like finally prelims going tahh end den bring me go have fun.
Made me await today for so long. cause last week i was not allowed to go out.
den today liddat.
never play and all.
but okay la,
i dunn mind having no $$,
just that disappointed that our actual plans not carried out :[
Nevermind,
what's more impt is that i am with you!

Followed zhiqi to remove her extentions.
After her removal,
her hair like dropped so much!!!!
it was like never ending.
Ohmy...

den we went to bugis to collect me and Brandyy's couple tee~
We loved it!
HAHAHA!
Zhiqi bought some darn cute *toot-*-*-* ahem*-ahem/*/*/
HEHE,
gonna get mine soon.
maybe with Charmaine?
shall ask her :P
Den we went to eat,
we crapped alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shall skip dahh details :D
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

bounced* back to Yishun to meet junxiang up.
blablabla,
went home!!!!!!!

thats all.
-end-

sometimes,ireallywannaforgiveandforget.butireallycan't.ithassomehowleftascarinme.
itreallybrokemyheart.whatifireallyagreedtoforgeteverything?
willthatbewhatyouwant?whydoyoustillrepeatsuchharshwordsandthrowittomedoubletime?
isitnecessary?Haveyouthoughtofmyfeelings?
wasiinthewrongatthattime?ijustwantedtoseeyouractionsingainingmytrustback.
isthatwrong?Haish.nevermind.weshalljustcontinuewithourlives.
nopointdwellingonthismatter.butsomethingsarereallyhardtoforget.
Imaybeabletoforgive,butimightneverbeabletoforget.

-23rdAUGUST2008

Saturday, August 23, 2008@6:17 AM

MUTHU SUCKS!

MUTHU SUCKS!
he is a bloody liar~!!!
Act one good infront of parents and infront of us like FARK!
Make such a BIG FUSS out of a small matter!
make up STORIES to to police!
FARK!

i argued with brandon yesterday.
den today,
i searched high and low for him as he left his hse at 12, so i thought he would have reached by 12:45.
so i go find him.
it was raining very VERY heavily,
Despite being angry with him, i still ignore the raining and just kept searching.
cause i was worried if anything might have happened or he might have gone somewhere else when he never see me under Lisheng's blk. (where i said i was)
i went back to school at 1, and told zhiqi and charmaine i cannot find him.
i burst out in tears as i was worried sick and i really could not find him and i was very angry and yet i did such a dumb thing making myself drenched like a soaked sponge.
However, i stood up and went out AGAIN to look for him.
zhiqi passed me her phone so we can keep in contact.
den i search again,
and there he was under the blk 269! (LiSheng'sblk)
i immediately walked towards him and hug him and burst into tears.
i Kept scolding him and crying non-stop as my emotions were very hard to control.
so i went away and leaned on a wall. (cause very tired)
den i continued crying looking one the floor.
Brandon saw me crying and obviously will comfort me right?
so he placed his arms around me while i cont looking on the floor.
den suddenly out of no where, MUTHU appeared.
i jitao, "MUTHU!MUTHU!"
den he stunned den faster get back in place.
the first thing he did was rush towards us and shouted at us, "FOLLOW ME!"
den we follow, den dunno what happened MUTHU suddenly scold us and call the police~
LIKE WHAT THE FARK.
This was alright, cause we did not do anything illegal or wrong as i was CRYING EHHS!
i just finished quarreling with brandon den so farking pissed off and mad den i still walked under the rain thinking of nth else but finding him. How i will feel?
he not only dialed the police, he make up stories!
he said "There is this guy with my student, an yishun ITE student, they are at this void deck hugging and KISSING."
WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!
KISSSSIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG?!?!?!!?
mailto:WTF?@?!?!!??!!~@#$@?%$&(_)*&^$%@$!@#
I CRYING EHHS!
I ANGRY EHHS!
HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT WE ARE KISSING?!!??!?!!??!!?!?!?
~!~!@#!#@!$#$^%*(*_)+)(*&^%$#@!~

DULAN!
DEN HE PUT WORDS INTO BRANDONS MOUTH AND COMMAND BRANDON AND I TO DO THINGS.
WTF?!?!?!??!!??!?!?!?!

den i called my mother and she got angry,
she say "why you crying?! dun cry!!! dun let the police see you cry or else they will think you in the wrong already. you dunn cry cause you never do anything wrong what! be strong! and i know you and brandon together what you scared for what? brandon i know one what?! scared what?! ask them call me la! ask your dm come to the phone now i talk to him!"
so i passed the phone to MUTHU.
you know what he did,
looked at phone and nod his head and ignore.
WTF!? HAMJI`!!!!!!!!
SAY WANNA ASK MY FATHER COME DOWN,
WANNA TALK TO MY FATHER.
MY MOTHER OWNSELF WANNA TALK TO HIM, HE HAMJI`!!!
KNN.
SCARED SIA~~~

Den when the police came,
we told them everything,
they understood.
in fact they still helped us.
cause we never do anything wrong what.
=.=
cause i dunn wanna go back to school to face that bloody MUTHU.
so i told them my feelings and they talked to MUTHU.
In the end i dunn have to go back i can go home.
see!!
even the police never pursue this matter, yet you wanna waste ppl time,effort and energy to come all the way down here??
you know how many police turned up?
about, 8~!!!!!!
SIAO~!!
8 police turned up for NOTHING~!
Lameshiet.

so they left and we said bye.

Den i called my mtoher to tell her everything is alright.
she tell me my father going down now.
den somewhat shouted at me,
den i called my dad BLABLABLA.

...
...

Den he reached, i went into the general office drenched,
And you know how MUTHU talk to me anot?
like a nice little innocent indian teacher.
FARK! act one nice and good infront of my dad.
and when infront of us can trewat us like SHIET.
he is so damn FAKE!
den i asked my dad come down, is to help me scold or talk to MUTHU.
In the end, he turned up talking for him and not understanding me.
FARK!
i was unable to take it,
i stood up and pointed at him "how you be my father one?!"
den he asked me to sit down,
i said "dun want la! you go talk to yourself~"

den i stormed out.
FARK.
KNN~!!!
LAMESHIET LA!!
FATHER TEACHER ALL THE SAME.
NO MATTER WHAT I DO,
IT'S ALWAYS WRONG IN THEIR EYES.
THEY CAN NEVER SEE WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED BUT INSTEAD, THEY DELIBRATELY MAKE SITUATIONS BECOME LIKE WHAT THEY WANT (THEY ARE ALWAYS RIGHT AND WE ARE ALWAYS WRONG)
WHAT KINDA LOGIC IS THIS?!
IT'S NOT EVEN LOGIC!
KNN~
PEKCEK LOS!
I AM NOT GONNA TREAT Y FATHER NICELY EVER AGAIN.
AND I AM NOT GONNA TELL HIM ANYTHING ABT ME EVER AGAIN.
CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I SAY,
I WILL STILL BE WRONG!
SO NO POINT AT ALL!!

FARK LA!
IS THIS HOW A FATHER SUPPOSED TO TREAT HIS DAUGHTER?
I AM HIS DAUGTHER LEHS.
NOT HIS SON LEHS!
IF I AM HIS SON, HE TREAT ME LIDDAT NEVERMIND, MAN TO MAN.
BUT A FEMALE EHHS,
CANNOT GIVE IN MEHS?
STILL NEHSI COME. NEHSI HE RIGHT, I WRONG.
AND GIRLS ARE ALWAYS MORE SENSITIVE DEN GUYS LOS.
THATS WHY I THINK IN THE FAMILY WHOM I CAN CONSIDER TALKING TO IS MY MOTHER.
CAUSE SHE WILL KNOW HOW I FEEL.

FARK!
everytime liddat.

haish.

lets end this here.

-bye-

(oneweektoseeifiamcherished,sometimes,icannotfeelthatiamappreciated.whatever.ijustknowthatistillreallyreallyloveyou.
andbecauseofthat,ihavebecomeatotallydimwitt.)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008@6:40 AM

FARKED LIFE

Badminton yesterday was fun.
but it was exchanged for FARK~!

ask me not to push the blame to others,
den why you still push the blame to him???
and i didn't push the blame to you all los!
i jut said, you and him osho never study osho liddat.
does that means i say, because you guys no education thats why i liddat?
no right?
what i mean was you guys no education still liddat go your life what.
and because you have never experienced what i am experiencing now.
i think if you guys are in my shoes, you will already quit school.
so pls, dunn anyhow scold me and all without knowing how it feels and how i feel.

and i asked you,
SO WHAT YOU WANT NOW?!
you widen your eyes and stared at me,
den slowly words came out of your mouth " i wanna kill you"
I SHOUTED" FINE! YOU WANNA KILL ME RIGHT?! I TAKE KNIFE FOR YOU!"
I stood up and went to the kitchen, took a chopping knife, threw it on the table "TAKE LA! KILL ME!!"

is education really more important den my life?
FARK.!
you dunn know how much i respect you los.
because you raised me up and stood by my side no matter what thats why i can't bear to lie to you.
den you scold me why must i tell you those things.
den i said, i telling you the truth what!
den you said i am not, say i am telling things that makes you angry.
so i like, =.= and said, den next time i dunn tell you the truth already, shall lie.
den you rush towards me and smacked me on my head continuously.
FARK!
is this fair?!
you think you nothing to say den keep hitting me will solve everything?
it will only make me worse and nth will change the fact.

You only think abt yourself,
think abt others la~
you keep treating me like garbage and pushing blame to him for every single misfortune that happen to me.
you thought he like ahhs? i osho dun like los.
FARK.

And everytime get beating and scolding and whacking and nagging and super huge headaches just for him, you know what i deal with all the time mahs? Still say i blame you, i dunn care about my feelings. but think la, has anyone ever cared about mine? Hiahs.
sometimes i really wish ppl will see what i am going through and stop all these nonsense.
Ridiculous.

if ppl push the blame to you, what will you do?
you will hate the person and even worse los.
but him lehs?
he take it all. He took all the blame.
put yourself in his shoes lahs.
If i said what i want now is to kill you,
how will you feel?!
ASK YOURSELF LA!
your own daughter say want to kill you.
HOW YOU FEEL?!
put yourself in my shoes la!!
If i keep pushing you to study now,
PUSHPUSHPUSH!
NO FREE TIME NO SPACE TO BREATHE,
how will you feel?!
deal with pressure of endless exams.
HOW WILL YOU FEEL?!
put yourself in others shoes la!!

PLS LAHS!!
stop being self-centred.
i already control my emotions very well los.
pls los...

farked up.
knn.
faster grow up la!
DEN CAN GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!
And finally get some quality free time.
my childhood is filled with all these shiet.
fark las...

-end-

Friday, August 15, 2008@9:02 PM

LESSY OUTING

Outing with Renata, MinYi & Brandon.
supposed to be a belated birthday celebration with renata :D
Thank you darling lessy for the wonder ful poster.
Yes i pasted it up on my wall :D
it's very lovely except for the wrong date. x[
HAHAA. nvm.
It's Still Brilliant! :D