will you hold on to me?
Will you hold on to me like this?
Forever?
Or as long as you could?
haish.
Thanks for being there for me when i am all alone.
Zhiqi Darling, Renata Lessy and Weisong Mummy :D
Did not intend to skip school today.
honestly.
but its because i waited and searched for you high and low for 2 hours.
End up you calling me telling me you are at home.
How pissed can i get?
And there i was,
wandering all alone at lil' ol' yishun.
from 6:40 am till 10 am.
Goodjob Lisa!
I didn't have anywhere to go, anything to do, anyone to lean on.
Only my friends smsed or called me on the phone to comfort me and try their best to keep me company.
I skipped school because of you,
but in the end?
Where you the one beside me when i am alone?
Were you there when i am scared?
Were you the tissue paper that dried up my tears?
Seriously,
today i really felt helpless and lost.
No one could tell me where to go or what to do.
I was really afraid that a police might appear and catch me.
I was afraid i would get kidnapped.
I was afraid i would get raped or worse!
and i really hate ppl walking past me and wondering why i am sitting there with my school uniform.
Grr.
-you really went overboard.
and sincerest apologies to RENATA ONG WEN HUI LESSY.
i really didn't mean to not get back to you.
Its just that my phone was in my bag and Brandon was holding on to it and didn't want to gimme back cause he scared i run away.
so i was unable to contact you or see your call.
When i got my phone, it was already 12:55 pm.
i am really sorry.!!!
I really wanted to call you or get back to you.
But i msg-ed you the first thing Brandon found me.
You never reply!
so sad.
But sorry!!!!!!!
really truely am.
and i where got when dun have Brandon den find you?
I find you to see if you got go school so can pei me.
But none of you can.
i only called you, weisong and zhiqi.
cause Zhiqi pon mahs.
and she talk to me on the phone since 7.
so she more clear.
den i msg-ed weisong and you.
Cause the first person or ppl i think of is the both of you.
cause only you two will pon.
Hhaha. and i remembered last time you scold me say, why i pon i never tell you?
or else you pei me. remember?
SORRY LESSY DEAR!!
i really never dun want you when i have Brandon!
Really.!!
swearrr!!!
love you!
-byes. ended.
ps (weisong forgotten about me liaos!! K.N.S)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008@4:56 AM
Life totally sucked recently.
so many DOWNS but no ups.
practically about 10% up only.
So bloody unhappy.
Haishhh...
But Lisa is still glad that she have her sisters
and friends who are by her side supporting her,
Thanks babies!!
Olvls coming.
i dunn see myself spending enough effort.
for prelims i only get 27 L1R4.
GoodLuck Lisa!
All the best to MEEee~!
-end
Monday, September 22, 2008@5:05 AM
Dulan
Please los,
if you say you will do things that you say den jolly well do it.
Dun say for the sake of saying.
say things never do.
den say for what?
since your not doing it den whats the point of saying it?
huh?
And by saying sorry without any actions,
it means nth.
when you say sorry,
i expect you to learn from your mistakes and do something about it or change the way you do things.
Saying sorry mean you realise your mistakes and you admit you're wrong.
Not by making the opposite person feel better.
since you already admit your mistakes,
den why not do smth about like basically stop doing it again and prevent history from repeating itself.?
only a fool/ trouble-maker will repeat it's mistakes when he or she apologised.
So please hold on to your words and dun "suka suka" say sorry.
Fark-ed up la.
please los,
you better do the things you have said to me hohs.
dunn keep repeating your mistakes.
very irritated and tired ehhs.
serious.
keep getting disappointed.
thought " hen hao shou shi ma?" (very nice feeling is it?)
i really dunn like los.
In fact,
I HATE IT!
whatever.
changing to what kinda person,
is all up tahh you.
i will just see what you are becoming too.
and if the changes you make are benefitting us or not.
yes, you have done nice things to me and to this relationship.
i dunn deny that.
you're the best boyfriend i have ever had, and i really love you alot.
Really alot.
But sometimes,
it's also because of this,
little mistakes that you do really affects me.
So please,
i am a very sensitive person.
stopping letting me fall.
instead,
i wish you could support me and prevent me from falling.
Or at least pick me up when i fall.
-end.
Friday, September 19, 2008@6:33 AM
Reply to renata's post
In reply to lessy's post.How much more misunderstandings do i want?
hello? i Did not ask for any.?
when did i misunderstand yahhall?
it's always me the one who gets misunderstood.
Me the one whom you break friendship with.
Me the one placing down all shame and face just to have you back as my friend.
Yes i quarreled with him on my own accord.
When did i blame you?
did i say i quarreled with him cause you asked me to?
I did not.
i just want him to know the truth.
And to tell you that i understand and that not all fault is at you.
And i wunn because he is my boyfriend i be biased against him.
In that situation, the both of you misunderstood each other.
So i just wanna let you know that he knows the truth and he is sorry that he misunderstood.
But seriously, he NEVER hate you at all k?
We had fun hanging out with you.
and i am sure that you had fun too?(Lessy's outing were always fun!)
and i did not make you the bad guy okay?
When did i make you the bad guy?
I thought it is always me who is the bad guy?
isn't always me you wanna let go?
always me who did things wrong?
And abt lifting their asses high,
you have never initiated to break a friendshipwith them before like what you did to me countless of times.
Doesn't this prove the importancy?
And imagine,
if you really did initiate the break up,
will they react the way i did?
you go think los.
Yes indeed you have shared longer number of seconds of friendship with them,
i have no problem with that.
But sometimes, you do and say things that makes me feel that what i am doing is not worth it at all. as it is not seen.
When has any of my doings been seen as a good thing to you?
And about trust,
when did i freaking lie to you?!?!?!?!?
What did i do to gain your trust?
the things you tell me,
i got bomb out mehs?
Zhiqi ask me to not be so close with you,
i got do so?
i still stick by you.
you ask me dun be so close with zhiqi,
i osho never do so,
you know why??
I seriously cherished you, Zhiqi, Charmaine and richelle ALOT.(in case you have not realised)
You want to have a normal life,
when have i interfered with your life?
i am owaes by you no matter what,
now you say you are tired abt it because of me.
I dun understand what have i done to be such a liability to you.
when you call me and tell me your problems,
i will tell you what i think and give you advise and comfort you.
Now with brandon, the both of us will try our best to help.
True?
It's just that nowadays you have not been telling us anything.
So you can't blame me for not always being there for you.
and i osho dunn wanna poke my nose into your life.
Cause i know you are a smart girl and you are wise enough to make decisions.
It's only when you need someone to be by your side,
i will be there.
trying my best to cheer you up.
i know you did wonderful things for me,
When have i not treasure them?
Isn't it why i hold on to this friendship so tight?
the huge card you made for me is neatly stuck onto my bedroom wall.
i did not just throw them anywhere.
i throw away our unhappy past and re-collect new and better ones and keep them in my heart.
so that our friendship will remain fresh and even become stronger.
Ask yourself, when have i initiated a quarrel or lecture you abt the things i dislike abt you?
i dunn even think much abt them until someone else mention them.
cause no matter what,
you're my friend, my lessy.
i have to live with it.
Happy can le,
who cares.?
aiyah.
I really dunno what to do.
You ask me to ask myself what i have done to gain your trust.
i think that question need not to be ask.
instead ask yourself in another form,
what have i done that did not make you trust me?
i really dunno.
now it's my turn to ask,
who is the one who did more in this friendship?
You say your tired,
what about me?
yes you're sick and tired of it.
but you are osho the one who wanna break it.
you are the one who shatters my heart.
i did not shatter yours at all.
to end this all,
i just wanna tell you that,
i really do cherish you,
i really do.
believe or not its totally up to you.
If you're really tired,
this time i will give in one last time and let things go your way.
As long as you will feel better,
will feel happier,
feel more comfortable,
i am fine with it.
and i really wish that you and Brandyy will go back to good terms.
cause no matter what, i will always be by his side and he will be by mine.
but if you're willing,
i will always be by your side too.
-LessysFOREVER.
-ireallywishso...
Monday, September 8, 2008@6:07 AM
Sasa's back to blogging with pictures!!
Like finallyyy~!!
cause baby got me mahh memory card reader!! W00tsssSsSSSssss.~!
all Lisa wants is everyone of her dearest to be happy.
Both her girls and boy.
Really hope things have stabilised and everyone will be in p.e.a.c.e...
That's what Lisa always wanted.
my sister and boyfriend to be in good terms.
Hope things will turn out fine and at the end of the day,
everyone will be leaving with smiles on their faces and happy memories to be treasured.
well,
Quarrelled with baby today cause of Renata.
MISUNDERSTANDING...
whatever.
baby} i just wanna tell you that i really love you. i really do.
renata} just wanna tell you i really cherish you. i really do.
but,
what i say does not matter.
what matters is what the both of you feel yeaps?
LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU.
verymuch....
-lishahaha is a paper AEROPLANEEE~~ WEEEEIOOOoooohhh~!!
baby so cuteeeeeee~ pay no attention to me mans!!!
-end-
Saturday, September 6, 2008@7:08 AM
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Please come and visit!!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008@7:08 AM