Reply to renata's post
In reply to lessy's post.How much more misunderstandings do i want?
hello? i Did not ask for any.?
when did i misunderstand yahhall?
it's always me the one who gets misunderstood.
Me the one whom you break friendship with.
Me the one placing down all shame and face just to have you back as my friend.
Yes i quarreled with him on my own accord.
When did i blame you?
did i say i quarreled with him cause you asked me to?
I did not.
i just want him to know the truth.
And to tell you that i understand and that not all fault is at you.
And i wunn because he is my boyfriend i be biased against him.
In that situation, the both of you misunderstood each other.
So i just wanna let you know that he knows the truth and he is sorry that he misunderstood.
But seriously, he NEVER hate you at all k?
We had fun hanging out with you.
and i am sure that you had fun too?(Lessy's outing were always fun!)
and i did not make you the bad guy okay?
When did i make you the bad guy?
I thought it is always me who is the bad guy?
isn't always me you wanna let go?
always me who did things wrong?
And abt lifting their asses high,
you have never initiated to break a friendshipwith them before like what you did to me countless of times.
Doesn't this prove the importancy?
And imagine,
if you really did initiate the break up,
will they react the way i did?
you go think los.
Yes indeed you have shared longer number of seconds of friendship with them,
i have no problem with that.
But sometimes, you do and say things that makes me feel that what i am doing is not worth it at all. as it is not seen.
When has any of my doings been seen as a good thing to you?
And about trust,
when did i freaking lie to you?!?!?!?!?
What did i do to gain your trust?
the things you tell me,
i got bomb out mehs?
Zhiqi ask me to not be so close with you,
i got do so?
i still stick by you.
you ask me dun be so close with zhiqi,
i osho never do so,
you know why??
I seriously cherished you, Zhiqi, Charmaine and richelle ALOT.(in case you have not realised)
You want to have a normal life,
when have i interfered with your life?
i am owaes by you no matter what,
now you say you are tired abt it because of me.
I dun understand what have i done to be such a liability to you.
when you call me and tell me your problems,
i will tell you what i think and give you advise and comfort you.
Now with brandon, the both of us will try our best to help.
True?
It's just that nowadays you have not been telling us anything.
So you can't blame me for not always being there for you.
and i osho dunn wanna poke my nose into your life.
Cause i know you are a smart girl and you are wise enough to make decisions.
It's only when you need someone to be by your side,
i will be there.
trying my best to cheer you up.
i know you did wonderful things for me,
When have i not treasure them?
Isn't it why i hold on to this friendship so tight?
the huge card you made for me is neatly stuck onto my bedroom wall.
i did not just throw them anywhere.
i throw away our unhappy past and re-collect new and better ones and keep them in my heart.
so that our friendship will remain fresh and even become stronger.
Ask yourself, when have i initiated a quarrel or lecture you abt the things i dislike abt you?
i dunn even think much abt them until someone else mention them.
cause no matter what,
you're my friend, my lessy.
i have to live with it.
Happy can le,
who cares.?
aiyah.
I really dunno what to do.
You ask me to ask myself what i have done to gain your trust.
i think that question need not to be ask.
instead ask yourself in another form,
what have i done that did not make you trust me?
i really dunno.
now it's my turn to ask,
who is the one who did more in this friendship?
You say your tired,
what about me?
yes you're sick and tired of it.
but you are osho the one who wanna break it.
you are the one who shatters my heart.
i did not shatter yours at all.
to end this all,
i just wanna tell you that,
i really do cherish you,
i really do.
believe or not its totally up to you.
If you're really tired,
this time i will give in one last time and let things go your way.
As long as you will feel better,
will feel happier,
feel more comfortable,
i am fine with it.
and i really wish that you and Brandyy will go back to good terms.
cause no matter what, i will always be by his side and he will be by mine.
but if you're willing,
i will always be by your side too.
-LessysFOREVER.
-ireallywishso...
Monday, September 8, 2008@6:07 AM