saddening
It's early in the morning and i am sitting on my lil' wooden stool blogging away.Cause you know why?I am unable to sleep the whole night.I was too upset to sleep.And it was pretty uncomfortable to sleep on my tear-filled pillow.Rather sticky actually.Keep flipping ard on mahh bed, dunno what to do.but managed to sleep.for awhile.Wanna know how i manage to have a decent shut eye?I think abt seeing him outside my house and bringing him to a corridor and slapping him continuously and pushing him down the stairs and finally step on him and walk off.Somehow, this horridious thought have made me able to actually feel better and breathe properly and finally have some rest.Although i may sound like a horrible sick person who is able to even come up with SUCH thoughts and even bear to do such things to someone whom she love so much for going 10 mths,well, i have come to this extend is due to his stupidity.And based on how horrible my act of violence is,you guys should have a rough gauge on how stupid he is.When you did a mistake and it caused a great impact on the opposite sex whom you treasure alot and that mistake almost cause you guys to actually get seperated, will you still commit it.?Some ppl will ACCIDENTALLY tend to commit it.But, he so stupid that he repeated the bloody mistake 2 times per day DELIBERATELY.thats only one of the mistakes he repeated on that faithful day.He was totally stupid los.the first time he did not reply any of my messages, i ask him can he reply and told him how i felt when he never reply.He CLAIMED that he understood,But he FAILED to reply me message after message.For the whole stinking shoe-smell day,he didn't even bother to contact me.All the way i am the one giving him opportunities by messaging him time to time and calling him. (Most of the time asking for reply.)All these small actions i initiate, can be an opportunity for others to try to get the slightest chance to talk things out,but to him, he dunn seem to notice it and even choose not to reply or call me back.What is this????He kept saying he loves me,But what is the use if his actions shows the other way?He shows me neither care nor concern.He still told me he tried to give me up.Ohmy, what is this?He actually intended to give me up.And in the end he said that he is unable to do so, thus, coming back and find me.DOTS!den say what tmr wanna meet me.After so much damage he have inflicted on me within just one day,he thinks that i will meet him the next day.To him, it's like, i wanna meet you, meet me tmr, meet me, i dun care.den i will meet him.when he choose to totally ignore me the whole day and in the end say all these.What does he take me as?????A "sui bian" person???Please los!!LISA HO AN QI do have feelings de okay?Please stop hurting me like this can?you say that you have done all these so you will not hurt me.Please los,how FUCKING dumb can you get.i told what you should do every single time and i am sick and tired of telling what my boyfriend should do for ME~aren't you supposed to have a mind of your own??i tell other guys what a girl wants and what they should do, it's perfectly alright lehs.But you lehs?!!?!?!?I must advise you is it?can you dunn wait until i say den you start doing.You know how dumb you look when you do all the right things after i mentioned them.It's like copyrighted and like, i dunno, no sincerity perhaps?I am really sick and tired.Lisa is going out soon.Gonna slack ard yishun alone.since i have no friends who are available for me anymore.All working or schooling le.So yea~Life gonna be tough alone,But i shall be strong enough to overcome it.Cause lisa IS strong.!!@is she??
Friday, January 2, 2009@4:27 PM
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