Beginning to think that it's true....
Recalling that day...
i think everything is starting to make sense,
So is it really true that all this while he have been decieving me?
A strong smoker cannot easily quit just like tat,
so how can he?
he started since he was in primary school,
how can he just quit instantaniously??
really starting to make sense.
smokers like him are unable to resist temptation.
esp when he is alone or with his friends or family.
plus tat day at far east,
his friends kinda revealed a little of that dark secret.
hmmmm...
after they slipped their tongue,
i noticed hiim giving them some sort of signal, like "diao, shut up, shit" those type...
i can see it from his reaction and from his eyes tat day.
if he never smoke at all and have already quitted, why didn't he shout out,
" You crazy ahh?? when you see me smoke. i quit already you dunno mehs? so long i quit liao you ask me go smoke?? and ask me for smoke?? My girlfriend here lehs, you dun "hai" me hohs. anyhow say..."
or something like that at least.
But all he did was kept quiet and he look so tensed up...
Hmmmmmm...
make sense,
why was his reaction like that?
Unless he did smoke right???
fuck.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009@2:20 AM
YES OR NO?!?!
Damn freaking stressed and ful of questions lately.
Almost every morning i wake up i start thinking of so many things that makes sense...
I cannot take it.
I am starting to feel kinda cheated.
Keep thinking if did he ever smoke before during this entire relationship.
Everything starts pointing and telling me that he got smoke~
I REALLY NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH!!!!!
I WANNA BELIEVE AND TRUST HIM~!
BUT I JUST COULDN'T~!!!!!!
HOWHOWHOW?!?!?!?!?!!?!!?!?!
ALTHOUGH WE HAVE BROKEN UP OR WHATEVER,
BUT I WAN TO KNOW THE TRUTH.
i wanna know if did he every betray me me or lied to me or hide things from me during this relationship.
No one likes the feeling of being cheated~
Anyone who saw or knows that Brandon has been smoking PLEASE let me know~!!!!!
i HAVE to know!!!
I wanna know the truth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES OR NO?!?!?!!
DID HE OR DID HE NOT?!?!?!?!?!
I AM gonna burst from all these thinking.
Really los.
he insist that he did,
But still, every morning i open my eyes,
i think abt it.
i dunno why.
But i just have this very very big feeling...
that he have been secretly smoking behind my backkk~~~
HOW?!?!!!
Sunday, February 22, 2009@11:21 PM
Some work pictures
Here are some pictures i randomly took during work..Boredd uhhhs~!!
enjoy... :]
Haha!
Haha! Suddenly i heard footsteps den i thought is got customers den i faster turned,
LOLS. Den is nothing zzzzz
:]]
Sian laaaaaaaaaa.......
shall upload more soon :]]
lisa is such a boring person.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009@11:07 PM
Valentines???
What's this??
Well, it's a valentine's card i made for my valentine,
Brandon Dermawan Goh Yap Hwee.
i spend 3 days to complete it.
On the day before valentines,
i stayed up till 2 plus just to complete the card.
For ppl who know me, it's already considered very late for me.
Here are more snapshots of it.
I did not take any other picture on that day. Cause it's better if i have no memory of it.
Shall elaborate more later.
:] CHEERS.
First he came up to my house to meet me, and guess what was in his hands??
Big FAKE, PLASTIC SUNFLOWERS. they dunn even look like sunflowers and are very ugly.
The worst point it's that they're fake,
For ppl who know meaning of flowers and gifts,
Giving someone fake flowers means, "jia xin jia yi"
In english it means "fake heart and fake sincerity"
SO yeaaa.. How disappointed can i be.
Knowing that it's he did not know, i let him go, and just forget abt it.
He said he will gimme something else when we go out.
SO we went to party world with SiewChen and Roy.
I cried. damn loudly.
Cause suddenly all my pain and hurt he inflicted on me just aroused within me.
(siewchen and roy were'nt there yet.)
He said alot of things to me,
he say he realised his mistake and that he will not hurt me anymore.
So when they came, we sang.
Den after that, we parted and i saw so many lucky ladies holding sunflowers in their hands.
I asked him "Why they have i dun have??? Where's mine?? "
He said, "Where got ppl sell sunflowers on valentines? only got roses, i wanna buy but you dun like roses. what you want me to do??"
So i kept quiet.
Later when we reached cine [planned to catch a movie]
I saw ppl selling sunflowers.
zzzzz
i asked him, SEE! WHO SAY DUN HAVE!!!!
He say, This town mah blablabla....
den i say, i want......
He say okay okay, LATER den buy k? den he pulled me away.
i got fed up and said, WHY LATER!?!
Everyone early moring got already now so late still dun get for me still say later?!
I asked him to buy de lehs,
He didn't initiatively get any single thing for me that day,
I still told him what i wanted. but end up disappointed.
Where got during valentines, the girl have to "zhu dong" ask the boy buy stuff to make herself happy.??\
i was so freaking sad.
And to cut long story short,
THINGS did not turn out as planned.
We did not have dinner at all,
I paid for my own movie ticket.
i cried.
We quarreled.
We broke up.
He made so many promises to me.
said that he realised so much.
Said that he know how to love me once again.
But,
all are lies...
Not true...
cause end up in disappointment once again.
Why?!!?!?!?!?!
Chance after chance,
Cause i loved you so so so so so very very much.
I held on alone,
But you keep trying to let go, hold on, den let go again den try to hold on again.
When can you ever Hold on and NEVER let go??????
When?
i dunno when.
But i am really tired now.
I do not know what to do anymore.
I can'T see that you love me.
I Can't see my importance and how much i mean to you.
you showed me what your answer was.
which is you do not love me and that i am not important.
Thanks for finally letting me know,
that i was being foolish.
you choose not to trust me,
End up, you should have.
i have never ever betrayed your trust.
you lied to me again and again, i still trusted you,
So what is keeping you from trusting me?!!??!!
I HAVE NEVER NEVER BETRAYED YOU!!!
nevermind.
Shall update more soon.
bye~
Monday, February 16, 2009@2:09 AM
Start of a new work :]
Hey,These are pic i took when i was working. 2nd day worhhs!!
HAHA.
lazy to rotate them. xDD
I love the shop i am working at~!!!! :]]
Ohhs, this is a random picture.Guess who this hideous creature is.
HAHAHA!! so funny lurhhs... xDD
Wednesday, February 4, 2009@10:29 PM